Remebering

I had forgotten who I was.
Through the last few years I had blamed God for the situations in my families life. I have cursed him, hated him and totally blamed him for everything that wasn't going the way I wanted it to. I took out all personal responsibility for choices.
This choice I had made, had started to drive a wedge between Mashelle and I, I argued with her and tried to get her to see things my way, she remained steadfast in her faith in God, telling me to except that God gave us the right to choose our ways and he will not take that right away from us. She has never stopped believing in me, and trusted God to bring me back to the man I was supposed to be.
This choice has also set a very poor example to my sons, they have even taken on my anger and now curse, swear and even though they have a knowledge of God they have no drive to seek him at this time.
Over the last 3-4 weeks God has started to remind me of who I am, I am his, I belong to him. I was purchased by God through the payment of his son.
I have apologized to my family and have found that, a simple kiss as I walk out the door in the morning has gone from, just a habit to a deep feeling within of wanting to be with her more and more just to see Mashelle makes my heart skip a beat and I find myself catching my breath at the sight of her and the thought that God has placed such an incredible woman in my life.
Will I mess up again, probably, but I know that my wife is there for me, and most importantly God is there with me. Even though I hated him and cursed him God has never given up on me.
So I go forward not looking back on my past, but looking at the now. I can't change the past and I can't predict the future, all I can do is live in the now.

Philippians 1:6New American Standard Bible
6 For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.

PRIDE--acronym

I love acronyms, if they are done right then they help place a proper perspective on the meaning of a word.


* P: Pray – We need to remember to pray, without ceasing. An attitude of prayer and thanksgiving will go a long way in our fight against pride. It is very difficult to fall into the trap when we are lifting our praise and thanks heavenward.

* R: Repent – If we end up in the trap (which as humans, we will occasionally do), the best choice we can make is to repent and seek God’s forgiveness immediately. By repenting and regaining our thankful attitude we can step out of the pride-trap and re-enter God’s peace.

* I: Invite – Invite God everywhere – to a baseball game, to the store, to work. God loves his children more than we can love our own. He is our greatest coach and cheerleader. With Him next to us we are less likely to fall into the temptation of toying with pride and its treacherous trap.

* D: Determine – Determine that you will, with God’s power, keep your focus on Him. We must make a daily decision to bow to Him alone, and no one or nothing else of this world. When we put people and things on a pedestal, we set ourselves up for pain and disappointment. With God as our focus we can rest assured that He has our best interest in mind – always.

* E: Enjoy – Enjoy God. Enjoy your children. Enjoy life. Enjoy today. After all, they are all gifts from our Creator. Joy is a gift from God. With our heart focused on Christ first and foremost, we are free to enjoy the world and all creation, especially our families.

I want it now!!

My mom wrote this as a comment. To a previous blog post.

"Why does he not come down and sit on my bed and give me answers and take care of problems?"

Well I think he does just as you said, He comes down sits on our bed, gives us answers and takes care of our problems. We just want it done now.

He holds us, tells us to trust him, to cast our cares upon him, We throw our problems in the trash and leave them, but before the trash can be dumped we run out dig through the trash and find OUR stuff, because they belongs to us.

Its like that certain pair of pants and shirt, its not pretty, you wouldn't be caught in public in them, but you will wear them everywhere else because they feel familiar.

Steve Harvey Introduces Jesus