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Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Battle Lines 6/11/2016

Acts 20:9
And there was a young man named Eutychus sitting on the window sill, sinking into a deep sleep; and as Paul kept on talking, he was overcome by sleep and fell down from the third floor and was picked up dead.

In this story we have Eutichus, ( I will call him Charles as he represents me), any way Charles is sitting in a window at Church. He is not in with the congregation, he is at church but not in church. He shows up he says hello. When people ask how he is doing he says fine, doing well, not bad. You see Charles is playing church.

By placing himself in the window he can see the world, he can be distracted, he can be easily swayed by what he sees. He is still hearing the service and he occasionally joins in, the rest of the congregation doesn't know hes playing church he puts on a good air that life is good.

This past weekend at my churches mens retreat, (Battles Lines). Charles attended he was looking forward to it, thought developing friendships would be nice, I had already had GOD working on me, I had confessed some buried sin to my GOD my Pastor and to my family. Little did I know that GOD was still working.

During the second session on day 2, we were talking about the roll of husbands and fathers. I listened to the other men, and started to be convicted more of my failures. But a wall was fighting me, I wanted to speak but was being held back.

In the passage of scripture Eutichus (Charles). Charles has become comfortable in his window, he is complacent, he has no accountability, he sets himself appart and as a result falls from church,he is perceived as dead. I can picture the fall, 3 stories down he hits he ground. Some of the other members of the church go to the window and look down to see the accident, (kind of like looking at car accidents on the road, you just want to see). I can hear them saying "Hes dead, wow did you see that, I heard him hit the ground no way he survived that fall"

Near the end of the session John Burger was getting ready to release us for free time before dinner. I found myself speaking, I had decided that I wasn't going to fall out the window from sitting on the edge of church I was going to dive out the window to show that people don't really care and I would be perceived as dead. I did not expect what happened next.

Acts 20:10
Paul went down, threw himself on the young man and put his arms around him. "Don't be alarmed," he said. "He's alive!"

I expected to be viewed as dead, but when I looked up I was surrounded by a group of men doing as Paul had done. They through themselves on me and shouted loudly, HE IS STILL ALIVE. They spoke life into me they let me know they would not let me die, they were there to fight for me. They didn't just view the fall as an accident and say hes dead, know they ran to me as Paul ran down the stairs and threw him self on the fallen. 

I can see Paul turning and looking up into the window where the others were watching from and shouting up to them. HE'S ALIVE. If Paul had not ran own to him he would have died. If the men of this church had not ran to me I would have died, I would have give up, I would have declared that people don't really care. 

I was wrong, these men surrounded my and were not letting go as God took over.

To the men of FLCC, Thank you, for fighting for me, thank you for meeting me at my "Battle Line"

Your friend and fellow warrior
Charles McLemore

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Holding on to sin

Romans 3:23King James Version (KJV)

23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;



This is my sin.
 I own my sin. My sin was against my wife, my own body and against God. I committed adultery against my wife. There is no excuse there is no logical reason, only that I sinned. I was being selfish and stupid.

I had allowed sin into my life. I felt I could deal with it. I confessed my sin to God and asked for forgiveness. I know he forgave me, but my sin involved others. I needed to confess to them and ask for their forgiveness also. 

By not dealing with my sin and trying to carry the burden myself and not trust God. I spent the next 28 years of my life self sabotaging, I wanted everyone to hate me, I felt I didn't deserve any goodness in my life and as a result I hindered myself and possibly my abilities. Only God knows what my life would have been like if I hadn't been so self destructive. 

When God started working in my life again and bringing people into my life that were there to help me. I found myself caught up in my head and not listening to my heart.

John 10:10
 

The thief's purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.




 I decided to act out in inappropriate ways, and as a result I insulted someone else whom God had put in my life. When they responded to me and let me know in a very straight forward but polite way that I was out of line. Immediately God convicted my heart.  I immediately dropped to my knees and begged God for forgiveness. I then realized how far sin had webbed its fingers into every facet of my life. Satan tried to steal my joy, tried to kill my marriage and tried to destroy friendships. 

 I then sought counsel and prayer.

 I came to realize I had to confess sin from 28 years prior. This was very difficult for me and it brought a lot of pain for the others involved. Forgiveness was granted but there will be a long process in rebuilding trust. 

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Remebering

I had forgotten who I was.
Through the last few years I had blamed God for the situations in my families life. I have cursed him, hated him and totally blamed him for everything that wasn't going the way I wanted it to. I took out all personal responsibility for choices.
This choice I had made, had started to drive a wedge between Mashelle and I, I argued with her and tried to get her to see things my way, she remained steadfast in her faith in God, telling me to except that God gave us the right to choose our ways and he will not take that right away from us. She has never stopped believing in me, and trusted God to bring me back to the man I was supposed to be.
This choice has also set a very poor example to my sons, they have even taken on my anger and now curse, swear and even though they have a knowledge of God they have no drive to seek him at this time.
Over the last 3-4 weeks God has started to remind me of who I am, I am his, I belong to him. I was purchased by God through the payment of his son.
I have apologized to my family and have found that, a simple kiss as I walk out the door in the morning has gone from, just a habit to a deep feeling within of wanting to be with her more and more just to see Mashelle makes my heart skip a beat and I find myself catching my breath at the sight of her and the thought that God has placed such an incredible woman in my life.
Will I mess up again, probably, but I know that my wife is there for me, and most importantly God is there with me. Even though I hated him and cursed him God has never given up on me.
So I go forward not looking back on my past, but looking at the now. I can't change the past and I can't predict the future, all I can do is live in the now.

Philippians 1:6New American Standard Bible
6 For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.

Monday, March 28, 2011

PRIDE--acronym

I love acronyms, if they are done right then they help place a proper perspective on the meaning of a word.


* P: Pray – We need to remember to pray, without ceasing. An attitude of prayer and thanksgiving will go a long way in our fight against pride. It is very difficult to fall into the trap when we are lifting our praise and thanks heavenward.

* R: Repent – If we end up in the trap (which as humans, we will occasionally do), the best choice we can make is to repent and seek God’s forgiveness immediately. By repenting and regaining our thankful attitude we can step out of the pride-trap and re-enter God’s peace.

* I: Invite – Invite God everywhere – to a baseball game, to the store, to work. God loves his children more than we can love our own. He is our greatest coach and cheerleader. With Him next to us we are less likely to fall into the temptation of toying with pride and its treacherous trap.

* D: Determine – Determine that you will, with God’s power, keep your focus on Him. We must make a daily decision to bow to Him alone, and no one or nothing else of this world. When we put people and things on a pedestal, we set ourselves up for pain and disappointment. With God as our focus we can rest assured that He has our best interest in mind – always.

* E: Enjoy – Enjoy God. Enjoy your children. Enjoy life. Enjoy today. After all, they are all gifts from our Creator. Joy is a gift from God. With our heart focused on Christ first and foremost, we are free to enjoy the world and all creation, especially our families.